Attempting a healthy balancing act.

Posts tagged ‘stress’

Guilty of Being a Biatch

I completed my stressful interview yesterday and did (I think, I hope) awesome. My awesomeness still does not garauntee me the job though.  I did the best I could and I prepared well so its out of my hands.

What was in my control though (and I totally blew it) was how I treated my poor husband through all of my stress.  I was not nice.  When I’m stressed I go from EVERYTHING is funny to NOTHING is funny very very quickly.  For the last few days I was in NOTHING is funny mode and my husband was still cracking jokes and supporting me in his own way.  I did not react well to this and treated him fairly poorly.  Finally he had enough and the straw broke the camel’s back last night.  He is mad.  I don’t blame him one bit.

As someone who is super sensitive, I hate it when people are mad. I hate it even more when I have done something to make them mad.  I feel the guilt.  I was a jerk.  As someone who is super annoying I also like to pester people with love after I make them mad to annoy them into submission.

I’ve said my sorrys and admitted my errors.  But I think tonight calls for some banana bread.  The husband loves banana bread.

I think I’ll use this recipe from Tasty Kitchen.

What do you do for your partner/spouse to make peace when you have been insensitive and a bit of a jerk? (c’mon we ALL have done it)


S T R E S S with a capital STRESS

I have been working on my “assignment” all evening for my job interview tomorrow and I needed a quick break to rest my brain. 

This is the most stressful  interview I have ever been a part of.  Why?  Because I already am doing that job.  I have been doing this job for a year covering mat leave and now they need to fill it permenently.  Its not the interview itself that has got my nerves all in a knot (because I am awesome at interviews), its my self confidence.  I have been doing this job for a year.  I have been doing a GREAT job for a year.  An EXCELLENT job….and I have performance reviews to prove it.  Yet they are still going through with a complete (and very thorough) hiring process.  My pride is hurt a bit.  If I have done such a great job then why go through all that trouble of screening and interviewing new people.  JUST PICK ME.  You don’t need to look for someone better, if that is what you are doing.  I’m the best.  The grass isn’t greener, man. 

  Can you tell I want this job?  I do.  A lot.  I am made for this job. 

Blarg.  Thats all.  Good not-unemployed vibes please.

Day three of half marathon training – 9.10 km with a 5.24 pace.  Go me.

For a quick laugh: